The Force flows through me, around me; swirling from one end of the galaxy to the other connecting all life as we know it in one truly indefinable entity. Countless Jedi and other Force users have tried to classify, quantify, categorize the Force; which is a daunting and ultimately futile task. The Force is not something that can be measured, instead only our individual connection with it.
Your connection with the Force determines your strength within it. Let me back that up a bit. Your connection with the Force, and your ability to open your mind TO it, determine your strength in the Force. If there ever was an individual whose mind was so open and enveloping to completely understand the entirety and complexity of the Force, he’d most likely accidentlly wipe out the galaxy we know it with a single though. At least, we’d HOPE it’d be accidental.
Jedi Mystics believe that the Force knows all. That is how some particularly gifted Jedi can glimpse the future through the Force, for the Force knows what’s going to happen before we do. I’d like to count myself among those gifted, as I’ve at the very least been blessed with the ability to see, even if its not always clear. The hardest part about that belief for me is this, in order for the Force to KNOW it has to be Conscious. If it is Conscious then it has a Will of its own and has the power to see its will be done.
Acknowledging all of this, The Forces reach, its power, and its omniscience, where does the destruction of Telos fit in? Where did the destruction of Alderaan before it fit in? Hindsight has given us the ability to look on the decimation of the Alderaan way of life as a catalyst. It was a stepping stone on the nurturing path of Luke AND Leia Skywalkers. It was something that cemented their belief that the Emperor and the Empire were truly “Evil” and thus must be vanquished. So they’re dedication to their cause took on a fervor that it may previously not have had, and in the end sealed the fate of the Empire, and gave birth to a New Jedi Order. My Jedi Order. An order that I would not be a part of if Alderaan hadn’t been destroyed.
However, it is a lot harder to view the silver lining in the destruction of Telos; But perhaps that is because I’m on the wrong side. I venture a guess that the Imperials didn’t see the Alderaan as a grand gesture to bolster their cause nor did it create many zealots dedicating their life to the Imps. My travel companion, my friend, is responsible for Billions of deaths. I capitalize Billions because the gravity of this lost may be lost in words. Capitalizing the word only gives it a small percent of its true weight. I was on station. I replay what happened in my head to see if there were some way i could have stopped it. But I was in a completely different sector, isolated by miles of city. Even if I had eliminated the threat of Ilyeanna, he still would have crashed the orbital platform to destroy the weapon. He did it without consulting his team, and with little regard for the loss of life. Those Telosians who have survived now have their catalyst. They have a reason to set them on a cause. But what cause? What role, if any will I play? What will does the Force have that would allow this?
The Telosians aren’t the only ones who will be looking for my, and my compatriots heads. The New Republic is also hunting us. And because Dax and I were present, they now hunt all the Jedi. We are once again endangered, our numbers dwindled to a few handfuls of us. The Force has allowed this. The Force has willed it.
Whatever plans the Force has, it seems it does not include a strong Jedi presence. At least not at this moment.
I am traveling as a pseudo prisoner. I am not confined to a cell, but have been asked politely by an honorable man not to make this difficult. Soon they will turn me over to my would be accusers and eventual executors. Confinement and Death are two things I cannot allow. I may not know the Will of the Force, but I do know this is not how I am meant to die. I will live on so I can try and decode the meaning of this tragedy and perhaps give our order the enlightenment is seems to be lacking.
I have made up my mind. When the time comes for the Exchange, I WILL escape.
Tripp Dunerunner Jedi Exile